blogging and God's awesomeness, part 1

Today, I was strongly encouraged to blog, since I haven't blogged in a couple weeks, by one of my ADX sisters, I'll call her Aro. So here I am, attempting to write however its not going that well. Maybe its because I'm trying too hard to write something thought-provoking that will spur each of my readers to become better people. I'll be honest, thats my problem. I've been told by my friends that read my blog that some of my posts are powerful spiritually. And now whenever I think about writing, I wonder if its "good enough," will it have enough "spiritual-ness" to bring people closer to God? 

When I first started writing, this was a way for me to share what I was learning about God's awesomeness through my daily life. But now, I've become egotistical and way to absorbed in the awesomeness of myself. I've become a pharisee-blogger. I'm a pharisaical blogger.

I'm not sure where this leaves me and this blog. I think I need to spend some time evaluating why I'm writing, whether its to glorify me or God.

Abba, I ask that you be glorified in everything that I do whether it be going to class, meeting with friends, or writing on this blog. Let your love flow out of me onto everybody with whom I interact. Forgive me for ever thinking that I was ever the one touching hearts through my writing when really it has always been you working through me. Thank you for loving me even when I mess up. 

national convention and love

This weekend was National Convention for ADX and it has been a crazy 30 hours so far. 200 girls in close proximity for an entire weekend is kinda overwhelming. Not that I don't love each one of my sisters and love spending time with them but after spending all day with that much estrogen in one room, I am ready for some time around some guys like the ones in our brother fraternity, Alpha Gamma Omega. And just some quiet time with me and God.

Have you ever noticed how finances is such a topic full of conflict? It doesn't matter whether its your immediate family discussing how you're going to pay for college, where the money for high school graduation expenses is coming from, or a national sorority financial update about where the dues go, it is always accompanied by lots of emotions, arguing, and passive aggressiveness. Is it because money really does make the world go round? I, for one, would like to say that's false. Yes, money is important; and yes, it does help when trying to acquire a house or car or even a place to hold an event; but I refuse to believe that it is the most influential thing in our lives. I mean really its just pieces of paper with certain words on it. What if instead of having everything in your life revolve around money, what if we chose to have our lives revolve around God and love and service. What if instead of always having to be paid for doing something, what if we helped each other out just because we care? What kind of change would that make? There are so many passages in the Bible that talk about love. Matthew 22:37-39 says, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'" I encourage you to make that change. May you stop focusing on money; may you instead choose to live by Matthew 22 and live by love; and may you run after God with all your soul and mind.